I tried. 

So hard. 

Pushed my limits. 

Forgot about my pride. 

Cried and wanted to hide.

No matter how much I wanted it. No matter how much I pushed myself. No matter how much I cared. I still got pulled away from the one thing I loved the most. 

I want to fight so bad. I want to stand up for myself. If only I can. I would. I didn’t have any bad intentions. All I wanted, was to do good. I cared too much. 

While  I was busy trying to fight for another, I got shut down from heaven and all hell breaks loose. I’m hurt. Deeply hurt. Pain runs through my veins. 

I didn’t think this could happen to me. It is really unfair.

The worst part is, i felt that I was left alone. Hanging. 

But I have nobody to blame. I’ll try to understand. I understand.

It hurts. I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. I want to shout. I can’t explain what I’m feeling. All I know is….. it hurts.